so the pepole reading this know that I'm very materialistic. But i think I'm that way becausetheres only 2 people that like me so i tried to fill the void of people with Objects and food and livingvicariously threw celebrity's and things like that. My only family doesn't care about me . Take my mom for example she and the rest of my family thinks I'm when he hasn't heard her some one the have to pay things for feed sometimes and make sure i go to school and that's. I'm sure once i turn 18 it will get the fuck out. Then someone that i thought was my doesn't even want to read my blog its not important enough and he barely knows me so reading my blog would help. But if obviously didn't care or like me enough to read it. He said some hurtful things first and basically most overplayed single ....Baby One More Time and he hasn't met her yet he thinks shes a bitch. Plus he said mean things about the indie bands Alicia help me discover that music is also very important to me. He generalized with everything . I actually thought that i found a third friend. I don't know whats wrong with me but alot things if i cant even make friends witch is very simple task. So I'm like tied of tryingno one likes me but that's okay i learned to accept it. I actually made an effort to be nice and friendly and that sort of thing and even thought he thought i was a good friend but i guess he was reading. He probably just thought i was some anoyng girl to talk to and pass the time. My own mom hates me and doesn't care about me some people don't know how lucky they are to have a mom that is normal i would trade everything i had for my mom to not be a schizophrenic i have heard when shes not she would be an actual good mom and i couldn't take advantage of her with money and rules but i would be way happier and alot but not all my problems would be solved. I guess i resort to items instead of actual people is because it cant not like care about you.